Sunday, February 03, 2008

Reality bytes and reality bites.

I woke up this morning feeling like I should take the plunge and face the amount of damage I've done in the past two weeks (wow, time flies). I weighed in this morning at 102.6. It was better than I thought it would be, worse than I'd hoped. It's possible that some of that may be water weight as I haven't been getting my water in at all, but I have a feeling most of it is the real stuff.

(Small) steps have been taken. Yesterday I had a dinner that actually involved broccoli, and I resisted the urge to head to the 24hr supermarket to satisfy those late night carb cravings with my body weight in bread and chocolate. It doesn't sound like much, but it's been happening a lot the last week or two and it's harder than you'd think.

Yesterday I also tackled one of my messy rooms (the living room, the one I spend the most time in). Ive mentioned it before, but having a messy house really affects my mindset. I feel like a complete slob, and if everywhere else is dirty and cluttered then I am too, and it makes making good choices for myself much harder. Needless to say, my house hasn't been pristine for a while.

I think I may have overdone it saying I would exercise 5 times a week, I'm thinking of dropping it down to three times. It seems like such a cop-out writing that. When I'm motivated and things are going smoothly then five seems perfect, but when it's not that five kills me, and then I give up all together. Maybe it's better to lower the number, and then when I'm feelign good and want to exceed it great, but if I'm not I can still get it all in and not feel like a failure.

Anyway, I'm here. I'm not out yet, but I'm slowly floating closer to the top.

Goals for today:

1) Wash all my dirty dishes and vacumme the floor so that cleaning the kitchen is finished off. - Done

2) Go to the supermarket and get ingrdients for dinner. Do not get any junk. - Done

3) Make lunch for tomorrow. -Leftovers from dinner

4) Put beans out to soak for dinner tomorrow.