Sunday, March 16, 2008

In which the authors body rebels

Welcome to Sick Town, Sickmusshire, Sickonia. Population: Me.

I'm over the main hump of it now I think, but I'm still having serious issues with what I guess must be my sinuses (bad pressure around my nose/eyes area) and feeling really weak. The weakness could be a result of my body deciding 'she 'aint doin' the food thing with me no more'. I've been drinking as much water as I can to try and avoid dehydration, but I can't remember a time when I've felt less like eating.

The good news in all of this (because let's face it, when you feel this crappy you should go for the silver lining where you can) is that my weight has gone down, if only temporarily. Given that the pre-sickness, pms-bloated me was hitting highs in the region of 110-111kgs I can only feel relieved that my body has decided to take matters into her own hands.

I'm not looking forward to going to work tomorrow at all.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Weekend pictures

Things have been extremely busy for the last few days. Last Friday I took a day off work and had a jaunt down to Nagoya, and Saturday I met up with my friend and we went to see the ume (plum) blossoms that have just started to bloom. After that we went to see her brother and his family (with the cutest little two and three year old!), and on Sunday it was off to Toba to see the aquarium there.

Blossom season is a very famous time in Japan, with good reason! I'm going to Kyoto in a couple of weeks so hopefully the sakura (cherry) blossoms will be out by then, but I have a feeling we may be a few days too early. Having said how ugly Japanese cities can be, I thought it only fair to mention that some parts can be absolutely breath taking during certain times of the year.

Yuuki Shrine:

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Happiness is also...

...Having your new multi-region DVD player arrive and setting it up with no problem, meaning you can now watch all your DVDs on your TV instead of hunched over your desk.

Logging your food for the first time in nearly a month and a half.

Happiness is not:

Realising that since you abandoned you blog (and quite possibly your sanity), you have gained a stone.

The other English teacher (she's Canadian, and comes to my school on a Tuesday) is a runner. I don't do running in public, but I mentioned that it's would be nice to have a park or something near my house now that the weather is getting nicer, just so that I could go and walk around when I felt like it.

It's been like that just recently. You know, when winter is receding and you just want to be outside a little. However, for those of you not in the know, the majority of Japanese cities are ugly. There are a few notable exceptions, but mostly. My city especially so.

This girl lives in a nearby town though, and it's beautiful. She said that if I wanted to I could grab a ride to the place she runs and have a walkabout while she's doing her thing. She mentioned there was a 1.5 km route I could go around. That's about a mile and sounds really doable; assuming the weather doesn't go plummeting into a downward spiral I may take her up on it.

If the temperature gets anything like it was last summer when I arrived, pretty soon it will be too hot to enjoy things like that, and I'll be spending most my time trying to avoid the great outdoors.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Happiness is...

Spending the day at 'work' IMing one of your best friends about the trip to Kyoto your planning for the long weekend at the end of March,

Sneaking out of work an hour early,

Walking home in the sun,

Stopping by the supermarket on the way home to find almost everything you wanted is reduced,

Forgetting that you did a Big Clean on Sunday and being surprised by a spotless apartment when you open the door.

What's your happiness today?

Saturday, March 01, 2008

A tragicomedy in two acts

"Silence is pouring into this play like water into a sinking ship"

I feel like that sometimes, like I'm just sitting here waiting for Godot. Like there's nothing to be done and I'll be doing it for a while longer. But the silence must be avoided at all costs, let us eat, sleep, talk, argue, make up, sing, play games, exercise, swap hats, contemplate suicide, anything but let the silence break things down completely.

Japan, in contrast, is fine. The bitter winter is just beginning to falter, and in another month the sakura will be blooming. I signed on for another year a few weeks ago, and I've been studying nearly every day. Things are easier. I knew the 'down' would come even before I arrived, but I didn't realise how bad it felt until I looked back and realised I wasn't there anymore. The sense of purpose is back.

It's the only area of my life that has it. I seem to be a trial version of myself that will let me focus on Japan or weight, but I'll have to purchase a key before I can do both. In the mean time I keep saying "Let's go", but do not move. I get heavier. I do not move.

Act II

Next day. Same time.

Same place.